I've just spent the morning frantically trawling through SecsintheCity looking for a job that’s as far away from London as possible. I've applied for jobs in Monaco, Dubai, and I’m even thinking about applying for a role assisting a globe-trotting magnate who constantly moves all over the world so I can never be tracked down!
Am I seriously considering relocating? It’s hard to say ... but I don’t know if I can show my face on the streets of London again, I'm so embarrassed.
OK, deep breaths, happy thoughts, kittens, waterfalls ... I’ll try to stop panicking and tell you about it!
As you may have guessed, I’ve had the meet up with Whiz Girl to talk about her and Curly Scarecrow.
To cut a long story short they’ve been seeing each other for over a month and they’re starting to “go public”. The worst thing though, is that it looks like it’s all my doing. Yes, she actually threw her arms around me, and wailing something about how happy she was, told me that none of this would have happened if it wasn't for me.
“What do you mean?” I said, trying to act like the floor was falling away beneath me.
Apparently the reason why this is all my doing is three fold:
1. I kept on saying how over him I was and how I didn’t see him as anything but a friend
2. I accepted a job working for him, which you wouldn’t do unless you were completely over someone (you’d think)
3. I’m always telling Whiz not to hold herself back so much and go for it if she likes someone
So how do I really feel about it? I knew the day would come when both of us would move on, I just didn't think it would be with one of my best friends. I’ve got to say it did freak me out and make me jealous in a way I really don’t want to be.
Anyway, after I’d calmed down I realised the biggest problem this has caused me is that I have to stay in my second job now. I took it on thinking I wanted to be able to keep my with some of my more loaded friends, on the handbags and holidays front, but it’s starting to really take its toll on my energy levels. I’ve found it harder to focus on my work in my day job and even the thought of a weekend at a yoga retreat in Ibiza, or a new Mulberry Lily (in Chamomile yellow, yum) isn’t enough to perk me up.
Unfortunately now that he knows that I know; it’s going to be very hard to leave without losing face and to quote Phoebe from friends, “face is a very important thing in my world”. So it looks like I’m stuck here for the moment, whether I like it or not.